Are all guys assholes?

For a very long time I very firmly stood by the statement that all guys are assholes. And I had every reason to. Since about 8th grade, I have seen guys assholes of every age, type and kind. So much so that by the time I was a sophomore in college, I had pretty much vowed to myself that I am never ever going to want to trust any other guy ever again.

But, of course, just when you make a vow like that to yourself, something strange happens. That one sweetheart comes in your life and makes it all worthwhile. Pretty much what happened to me. After one final disastrous relationship + breakup back in Septemeber, I was done with guys. And then I met him. It’s funny how back then when I had met him at a club in August, I thought he was cute but unfortunately I was already dating another guy then. I didn’t know back then that I will get together with him a few months from then.

But, since December, this man has made me believe that there are guys out there who actually have a heart. Just when I had lost all faith in men, he helped me regain it. He made me realize that there are Prince Charming’s and Romeo’s in the world. You just have to wait for him to come at the right time.

I think I can finally (after almost five-ish years) say that all guys are NOT assholes. And you just need one guy to prove that to you.

XOXO

Summer Wummer '09

Back! With a new template...I think I will change it soon though. I was bored of that one and I think it was too "teenage-y" for me. Teehee. Yes, this is the new-soon-to-be-twenty talking to you. HAHA. Gosh.
Anyway, Summer is HERE! Which means more time to do things I like doing (read: blogging :D)
I went home for about 20 days to relax and be a couch potato and now I am back on campus ready to start taking summer courses and work. This summer is looking to be S-W-E-E-T.
Reasons?
- I am living in a 4 bedroom apartment all by myself for the summer. It's nice and it's so awesome to have my own living room, kitchen and definitely the INDEPENDENCE to do whatever I want to do :)
- The boyfriend. Me and him have decided we're having a summer fling this summer. I'm excited. We've already been having an amazing time and it's only going to get better.
- Only 2 classes = not too much work = lots of partying :D
- Awesome Weather. Not too hot, not cold at all. It's so perfect. :D
- My 20th Birthday. Yay, I'll be a teen no more. I'm still debating whether I like the idea of that or not. Well, if not, then I can always tell people I'm Twenteen :D But nonetheless, I have a sort of feeling, that this coming birthday will be really fun. ;)

That's all the reasons I can think of right now but I am sure there's going to be a ton more!!
I will keep this updated. =)

Adios!

XOXO

Such is life.

SUCH IS LIFE.

I'm not going to go over the whole "wow, it's been such a long time blah blah thing" cause right now I just came back to my blog to clear my thoughts. My head is crowded with emotions right now. I am SO utterly confused as to how the human mind works. It's just so impossible to decipher people. There's the boyfriend (yeah, there's one...will come back to this some other time), who loves me unconditionally and takes all my bullshit, all my tantrums, all my nonsense with a smile on his face. I can bet there's like a million times a day I will get pissed about something and he will just take it in his stride to fix it. Like, how can a person not get tired of fixing someone else's problems/issues constantly? I am grateful, though, that he's there otherwise I would be pretty much broken right now thanks to certain other people in my life. I call them my "friends" here at college but wow, there's no genuine person here. Best friends bitch about one another. Strangers/ people you don't even know gossip about you, there's SO much drama. All I want is to know at least a FEW PEOPLE IN THIS GODFORSAKEN PLACE WHO ARE NOT FAKE! Seriously, what is the problem with just being yourself? There's so many people here I know on campus that when I just look at them talking or acting a certain way, I can just know instantly that they're putting on a show to be that person. WHY? Why can't you just be yourself and not care for a second what the other person thinks about you? I mean, afterall, how long can one keep on pretending to be something they're not. There's a lot of people I know, who are supposedly my friends but I know they either hate me or strongly dislike me for the "kind of person" I am. But I honestly have no regrets because I'd much rather be who I am and be happy and have ONE friend who accepts me like that and loves me for who I am than be a FAKER who pretends to be friendly to everyone and then backbitch about them later and have the whole world loving me. I wonder how these kind of people can live with themselves like that EVERY SINGLE DAY! I don't want to sound like I am whining or complaining about the drama in my personal life, but just in general, there's so many people out there who are just always trying be someone they're not. And that is just PATHETIC. Learn to be yourself and everyone will love you. And those who don't love you for who you are, too bad for them. You gotta keep yourself happy, chum! :)

Re-evaluation Time:

I wrote my last post post about 2 months ago on my to-do-things at college. I want to now look back and see where I've reached.

• Finalize what I want to major in: Yes, over the summer I was majorly confused; now it's come down to financial planning/economics (basically something related to the business field) Alongside, I want to pursue my interest in Journalism which I'm doing by writing for the college newspaper. Hmm....good enough for so far....but still have to keep working on this..
• Eat healthy and go gymming: Whooo, I have been eating healthy for the most part if I count out the OCCASIONAL bursts of me wanting to have some deep-fried, fattening shit. And even though I haven't really gone to the gym at all, I have been dancing everyday for my dance performance which is next week for Diwali night! It's gonna be super-duper fun because I love our song selection, the girls I'm dancing with and the whole feeling of being part of something :) 
• Stay out of drama: UMM...I think I have a weird magnetic attraction towards drama; it never ceases to leave me alone! :( I was so sure I'm not going to be part of any drama this year and the beginning of the year (like maybe the first week) was fine and then everything kind of just turned around. But I have to say even though I don't regret bits of it, I wish things had happened differently. I'll just leave it to this because I don't want to think about it anymore. But hey, I'm now trying to go back to normal and get the drama out. Hopefully, it'll work! :/
• Stay away from boys: Um, this did NOT work at all! I fell for a guy and I fell hard! But, other than that, I've been pretty consistent about making sure that I do NOT get attached to any boys. And this particular one that I did fall for, well I'm now making an effort to kick him out of my life cause I mean honestly, who needs guys? THEY'RE the main cause of drama in our lives anyway! :P
• Get actively involved in something: Yay! I think I did a pretty decent job on this. I found a job on campus, I started writing for the school newspaper and I'm also doing a dance performance. All of this takes up a lot of my time and there are days when I just really want to quit but I won't lie, I LOVE being busy and having something to do at all times! 
• Get an early head-start on assignments: I have avoided procrastinating a LOT this semester. I've only had 1 semi-all nighter (don't even bother asking what it is) and I've been doing a pretty decent job of getting my assignments done on time. WOOT! :)
• Be happy and live for myself: I'm happy for the most part. I've been working on this and I'm trying my best to just not care about anyone else. It's going fine but I still get those occasional feeling of remorse or regret or that feeling of being sorry for myself about something or other and I want to get rid of that- still working on this!

Ah, that felt good. I feel so sad that I can't blog more often cause everytime I do, it seriously gives me so much self-satisfaction!

anyway, back to the 69679367 things I have to do! :)

XOXO

Random-end-of-the-summer-post

OK, so summer is almost over and I go back to college day after tomorrow (Sunday) Classes don't begin till next Monday but I'll be training for my job for a week before school starts... which is actually okay by me. I've been wanting this summer to end since forever; it's been such a LONG summer. I'm totally pumped to go back to college and get my freedom back (hehe)

To-do things this year at college:

• Finalize what I really want to do (yes'm, I'm still confused and I hate the feeling of being so undecided. I don't know why I can't just stick to one major and get it done with... I guess the vast majority of options and opportunities do this to me :/)
• Try to eat healthy and hit the gym as much as possible. This is going to be a tough one but I REALLY want to be fit!
  
• Stay out of drama! Oh goodness, last year's drama was enough to last me a lifetime(or at least the next 10 years!) I just want to be out under the shades somewhere; go unnoticeable this year (well, not really haha) but gah, I don't want to have to deal with short tempers or narrow minds or horny committed boys who take advantage of me or bitchy girls.
  
• Stay away from boys! Not my guy friends, but prospective; cute boys that I'm likely to fall for. Because Boys literally spell DRAMA which, as I said above, I want to stay away from!
• Get actively involved in something productive and worthwhile! Something that will make my resume look delicious to the employers! jeez, don't ask why I'm already thinking about that..
• Get an early head start on assignments and such so that I can avoid those much despised all nighters because they really are SO unnecessary....not only do I lose my precious sleep but also the extra coca cola and the late night snacks add to lame-ass extra calories which are TOTALLY NOT WANTED!
  
• Be happy! Seriously, there were so many times at school last year where I was at the verge of depression....I just want to be genuinely happy this year
• Live for my self. Yes, no more wanting to please other people. You like me, you like me! You don't like me, Fuck you! I'm going to stop living for everyone else. So screw you if you got a problem with me. I'm not living to please you! :) (yeah, that was a little strong)

Okay, that's all I got for now and I'm going to make this list into a nice post it note that's going to be stuck on my table to keep reminding me of my goals!

Hope everyone's summer went well! And, Wooohooo for college/school!

XOXO

SINGAPORE!

• Reminded me of an odd blend of Delhi and Chicago- I noticed a lot of things that were sometimes too Delhi-ish and others that were too Chicago-ish...I have them in my head but too lazy to type them up (this is what summer does to you :/)
• Sentosa Island is pretty cool; especially go-karting down a mountain. That's a lot of fun and the fact that you can control how fast you want to go- gives you a natural high :)
• Contrary to what so many people had told me, shopping in Singapore wasn't that great to be honest. Most of the things were either the same price that I get here in Chicago or they were more expensive and I was disappointed. I think the only place that was okay was probably the Bugis Street where you can bargain and stuff. Bugis Street reminds me soo much of Delhi's Sarojini Nagar or Janpath where locals buy "trendy" stuff for cheap and the shopkeepers try to fool tourists by selling stuff for high prices. But whatever, I'm not going to complain because I bought two Juicy Couture bags from here for less than the price of one :D
• The Night Safari in Singapore is definitely something that should not be missed. It was seriously beautifully set. And I got to take pictures and touch some pretty cool animals including a snake (I think it was a python) and a baby cub :) :)
• Orchard Street was great but then again, everything was way too expensive.

THE CRUISE:

• The Star Cruise that we took together was truly a memorable experience, more so because it was the first time that my entire family (that is including my grandparents, my maama's family and my maasi's family) went for a vacation together.
• At first I was quiteee disappointed when I arrived and noticed that 85% of the people on the ship were Indians! And the rest were chinese/japanese/malays/koreans etc etc.
• But on the first night when the DJ at the Disco Fiasco on the deck played hindi songs AND english songs, I thanked God for having Indians on the ship! Because being in Chicago gives me a big disadvantage in this respect that when I go to the parties in college, there's only American music and when I go to Indian parties with family or family friends, there's only Indian music. Basically the two are never played together so I was just really really elated! :)
• I also realized how muchhhh I LOVEEE dancing even when I'm NOT drunk/tipsy. I seriously went crazyyyy on the dance floor :) and I didn't feel the need to want to drink and get tipsy even though the bar was right there and there were drunk people on the dance floor. CUTE drunk people. CUTE drunk BOYS. One of whom asked if I wanted to dance with him. And I very heavy heartedly had to say no because my family was there :(
• Oh, well.
• One of the disadvantages of having so many Indian people on the ship, though, was the fact that since a lot of them were the typical middle-class indians, they would give me the raised eyebrows and a plenty look of disapproval when i would wear shorts or tank tops. That was just reallllyyyy annoying.
• Our first stop was in Penang, Malaysia where we hired a private tour of the city and basically just drove around. We stopped at the Reclining Buddha temple which was pretty cool. It was like a 33m/53m (I forgot) long statue of the Buddha in sleeping position and hence the name. What I found more interesting, though, was the thousands of little ming vases with ashes of famous dead buddhas/priests that had been kept on shelves all over the temple on walls behind the reclining buddha. I found that really cool especially the ming vases that were so beautiful.
• And I also had the most amazing lunch in Penang at a mall (yes, ofcourse I visited a mall here too) called Gurney Plaza. Again the stores were way too expensive so we just went to the food court. We ordered something called the Tom Yam Claypot and it was seriously the most AMAZING thing I've ever had. I cannot even begin to describe how delicious it was. On the way back, I lost my lovely, amazing, favoritest Armani Exchange sunglasses on the bus :(
• Back on the ship, there were a plenty of things to do...a Bollywood to Hollywood party (lol) and Bingo games and Hawaiian parties. Basically, something to keep us occupied at all times.
• Oh and of course, I forgot to mention, the ship had an Indian restaurant on board. And surprisingly, the food was pretty decent tasting. Yayy!
• And it was right next to our suites on the 11th floor along with possibly everything within reach like the deck and the photo place and the pool. Ah, the luxury of being in the Executive Suites ;)
• The next day we stopped at Phuket island in Thailand. Again we took a tour. We stopped at an Island safari first where we saw a monkey show (just like the ones we used to watch on our streets in Delhi as kids :) ) and I shook hands with the monkey, then we rode an elephant, then we watched an elephant show where I volunteered to get an elephant massage (which basically had me lying down on my stomach with the elephant's leg on top of me...I'll put up the pictures on facebook soon)
• After that we went to a souvenir place where I bought a wallet made from the skin of a stingray....it's really pretty :])
• Then we visited the famous Patong Beach where I basically shopped (duh!) I bought myself a Chanel bag, a D&G bag and a Chanel wallet. :D (fake ones though lol)
• After that back on the ship and back to Singapore, again lots of fun things on the ship. There was one show called Fantasy which was basically a topless show. LMAO.
• I definitely want to take a vacation like this on a cruise with friends sometime in the future so I can do all the "fun" things that I couldn't/ can't with family ;)
• But seriously apart from that, this has really been one of the Bestest vacations ever. And cousins can be a lot of fun. And some can be a pain too ;) I reallyyyyy wish this trip had lasted longer!

Hope everybody's summer is going well!

XOXO

Reason to blog!

Thanks Vasudha (too lazy to do the whole linking shiznit) for the tag otherwise my blog would be in its dead phase for another couple of weeks lol

so here goes:


1. What have you realised recently?
That the most important thing in the world is self-respect and faith and living life your way; everything else will come together once you have this.

2. Have you given your first kiss away?
yeah, though I wish now I had saved it for someone more special :/

3. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 11 blog buddies you would take?
11 is a lot of people, I'll be content with a few close ones...definitely Shayeri cause I know if I have her, there'll never be a moment of boredom, same goes for UD...and then....I guess Abhi, Aditi and Salona (half these people have stopped blogging though :P)

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
Paris. Paris. Paris. Paris. Paris!

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
Be successful and well-off in my career.


6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Sometimes...

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
my youth, my teenage years, college life and all that jazz....cheesy no?

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
definitely go shopping, is there any doubt about it? haha

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
I always think it's better to speak out your mind/heart instead of keeping things to yourself and wondering and making "what-if" conclusions.

10.List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
um I don't know her too well but here goes: she's definitely intelligent, she looks really pretty in her pics and I like her sense of humor in her blog posts :]


11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
good-at-heart, honest, comfortably rich (:D), a bit romantic and good sense of humor

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
hate is a veryyy strong word but yeah i really hate liars, fake people and people who play double games and try to manipulate others (ah, only one name comes in my head and if you're a close friend, you know who that is )

13. What is the one thing you cannot live without?
an internet connection! haha

14. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
Point it out in a subtle, non-mean kind of way

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
keeping myself happy

16. Are you a shopaholic or not?
oh, shopaholic doesn't even BEGIN to describe my obsession~

17. Find a word to describe the person who tagged you.
intelligent

18. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?
Be more focused and confident about what I want

19. Whats the last shocking thing you've seen or heard?
can't think of anything shocking that happened of late... :/


20. Would you rather have love but no money or money but no love?
This may make me seem like a bitch, but I'd take money over love even though love is equally important.

XOXO